Want to deepen your relationship with God?
Come join me on a transformative journey to reclaim the sacred and bring meaning back in your life.
Before you read further, let me tell you what this site is not.
I am NOT here to:
YOU TO A RELIGION
(I am not religious)
YOU OR THE WORLD
(We don’t need saving)
YOU TO BELIEVE IN GOD
(You believe what you choose)
This site exists purely as an evolving exploration into the mysterious divine that I call God, as seen through my eyes, felt through my heart and experienced in my soul.
Hi, my name is Tree.
I run a successful blog and business over at www.FindYourInnerHappy.com where I teach sensitive, loving souls how to get in touch with their inner strength and power.
And that’s my whimsical muse, Stick Girl. She reminds me not to take life so seriously.
I was at the park one sunny day recently, sitting under a tree on the grass, reading a book titled Jesus Calling. A lady walked by with her dog and I found myself instinctively lowering the book behind my knees so she couldn’t see the cover. I didn’t want her to see that I was reading a book about Jesus. It embarrassed me. Somehow, I felt ashamed.
It made me wonder:
Why am I embarrassed by my love for God?
After everything God has done for me, why wouldn’t I be shouting his praises from the mountain tops? Nearly every page in my journals since I was 16 are filled with private conversations, devotions and thanks to God, and yet, when in the presence of others, I barely mention Him.
When I reflect on this, I realize that I suffer from what I’ve now come to call “God Shame”.
GOD SHAME IS THE EMBARRASSMENT OR SHAME YOU FEEL AROUND OTHERS WHEN YOU EXPRESS YOUR PERSONAL FAITH.
Here are some subtle ways God Shame appears:
- 1Are you hesitant to talk or write about God as often as you like?
- 2Do you find yourself consciously holding back from using the word “God” in public and instead using softer words like Source, Universe, the Divine, Presence, etc?
- 3Do you fear what others might think of you if you expressed how you truly feel about God, uncensored?
- 4Are you uncomfortable leaving a book that’s clearly about God on your desk at work for everyone to see?
- 5Do you question your own faith and wonder sometimes if you’re being duped by believing in something you have no proof exists and can’t explain?
- 6Do you wait until you know someone’s religious or spiritual stance before you express your own?
- 7Do you “tone down” any talk of God when in the presence of others whose beliefs you aren’t sure of?
- 8Are you afraid people will think you’re “one of those” if you openly expressed how you feel about God (you know, one of those religious zealots who mercilessly preach God to others until their eyes glaze over)?
- 9Do you have “God friends”, a small circle of people who you feel completely comfortable talking about your love for God, but around others outside the circle, you hold back your true feelings?
If you answered YES to any of these questions, you probably have some level of God Shame.
The more YES’s you answered, the deeper your shame.
If this is you, you’re not alone. I answer yes to ALL of these questions.
And if there’s one thing I know about shame:
SHAME THRIVES IN SILENCE AND SECRECY.
The best way to get rid of shame is to confront it. You confront shame by wrangling it out of the closet, holding it up to the light and talking about it.
After that fateful day in the park, I decided I didn’t want to be controlled by shame anymore. For this reason (and this), I started ClosetGodLover.com.
It’s my way of coming out of the God closet, leaving the shame behind me and following a whisper from deep within.
If you resonate with any of this, I invite you to journey with me and banish our shame together. Enter your first name and email address below and be the first to know when we update this site.
If you don’t resonate with any of this and all this God-talk somehow makes you angry, Stick Girl invites you to look at some of her silly drawings to cheer up and remember not to take life (or random websites that trigger you) so seriously.